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the beginning and the end

Recently,dad was admitted to hospital. The reason for him to admit to hospital is thrombocytopenia. His platelet used to drop to 1/L compare to normal range 150-400/L. after 42 packs of blood and platelet transfusion, the platelet count is still less than 10/L. doctor decided to stop giving him any blood supply. High dose of steroid, and immunosuppressant was prescript. We are so worry of the side effect, yet we still have trust in the doctor, who will make a good judgment.
After 1 week of discharge, my dad suffers from mild cough. We urge him to go and see the doctor ASAP as he taking the immunosuppressant. He did what we said to visit the doctor again. The time I was surprise that the doctor didn’t admit him again. On the same day, the night, my dad coughs for the whole night until he got hemorrhage stroke. The next day, he didn’t even has chance to express what he needs, what he wants. Slowly, I notice there is something weird. Quickly, I sent him to hospital for admission.
With my limited professional knowledge, I was explaining to the doctor what my dad may be suffered. But THE DOCTOR is too ARROGANT to listen to me, he ignored what I said. Once again, I still believe doctor judgment/diagnosis is always right.
1st day, my dad still could hardly open his eyes and nod his head.
2nd day, he only could hold our hand
3rd day; his body is full of machines supports.
The doctor was telling us he got multiple hemorrhage strokes in his brain. But before he dead, doctor just notice he got pneumonia. My dad is not dead from thrombocytopenia, but he dead from pneumonia, which I keep focus to ask the doctor to treat on the 1st day of admission.
The time he leaves, none of the doctor is around, and nurses were kept calling funeral stop to come rather than doctor to help.
What I know from here is- doctors are arrogant, selfish, and careless, lack of knowledge compare to a student of pharmacy
Nurses are too money minded, refuse to help, pretend very busy.

There maybe still have hope for us to spend more time together. But the doctors took away all my precious belonging. Can I hate him? Can I forgive his mistake? I hate him, deep inside of my heart, and I hate myself for too trusted the IDIONT.
I know, my life have to move on, be strong and courage… I had been listen too many words from different persons; I thank them for the encouragement. As a Christian, I know the forgiveness of sin, love God with passion, and love ppl with compassion. But if you were on my shoes, can u do the same things? Yes, one day I may forgive the “hematologist doctor” but I will never trust any doctor again.

发贴者：lavender_ling @ 1/13/2010 11:14:00 上午